RECOVERY LOG 019
FRAGMENT 0895
LISTEN
I tied my face in place Like it was something good You said "Take care of you" I said "Yeah I should" My hands stayed calm My eyes stayed dry But my chest was loud When I said goodbye I laughed too quick I nodded slow Held on to the door Just to let you go Forced smile forced smile I wore it for you Forced smile forced smile While my heart split in two I said "I'm okay" You could see right through Forced smile forced smile That's all I could do Your name on my tongue Felt heavy and small Like a cracked old phone In a quiet hall You looked back once I looked away Tried to make "goodbye" Sound like "stay" I laughed too quick I nodded slow Held on to the door Just to let you go Forced smile forced smile I wore it for you Forced smile forced smile While my heart split in two I said "I'm okay" You could see right through Forced smile forced smile That's all I could do And after you left The room went still My face fell apart Against my will No one saw The truth I hide That little grin Was a place to cry Forced smile forced smile I wore it for you Forced smile forced smile While my heart split in two I said "I'm okay" You could see right through Forced smile forced smile That's all I could do Forced smile forced smile I let you go Forced smile forced smile But I didn't know How to wave And not come undone Forced smile forced smile Till I was alone